It's Friday, which implies that I will be supervised 24/7, oh dear.
Ate far too much yesterday and now I am paying the price, i.e. no food all weekend. Why the hell did I think Scampi, Fish and Chips would make a good supper? Oh, and the 2 horrible cheese twist pastry things I got from Sainsbury's.
I even had lunch at the office!! A bloody blueberry porridge made with soya milk. I am such a pig. What I have to think about now, is how to fake that I have eaten when I clearly haven't, and how to hide food from the table.. Geez.... I have to be devious....
Hi there! I just wanted to drop a line and offer any support, all of us in this community have felt that self-hatred and disgust. What helps me is implementing rules, if I binge, what happens. What I need to do, what I can eat, and when. Try sticking to a schedule maybe? I find it helps me when I know indefinitely when my next meal/feeding/snack time is, so it helps me to avoid binges or other social pressures, I can say no because I will be saying yes to myself later. Does that make sense?
ReplyDeleteAs for tricks with hiding eating, If it's one on one it can have it's challenges because there is only so much to distract the other person... I read a tip somewhere about a girl who had taped a plastic baggie under her table, opened. and she would slip food in there during dinner and then throw it out when the meal was finished. It's absolutely brilliant but can be tricky to pull off... Also I like to hide my food on my plate, so for instance If I'm having fish and chips and coleslaw, I'll cut up the fish and chips and hid it underneath the coleslaw and then make an excuse about the slaw being too salty or a time I ate too much and now I can't eat it. something like that.
lots of love!
xoxo
Hello there, thanks for commenting and the advice. I will try to stick to a routine...
ReplyDeleteHiding my eating is getting more and more difficult as my partner is literally watching my every single move, I can't even purge.
Earlier this evening, she made me go to her frd's place for supper and kept reminding me that I have to eat normally so as to not to embarrass her. At the end, we had a 3 course meal and now I feel like shooting myself. I guess I am going to have a laxatea in a bit.
Anyway, sorry about the rant and hope you are doing a hell lot better than me. By the way, are you in the UK by any chance???
Stay strong and skinny.
xxx