Right, after the binge and purge day yesterday, I had a really sore throat and stomach today, which is kind of great as it reminds me if I binged, I can't purge cuz it even hurts to swallow sometimes, so I didn't binged today, and all I had today was 2 massive bowls of veggie stir-fry, 4 poached egg whites, and a couple of crisps. I know I shouldn't have had the crisps, but at least I stopped after 6 of them, instead of stuffing my face with it, which I normally do.
Relationship stuff is just as usual, we fight, she forgives, makes me feel crap cuz at the bottom of my heart, I know that I don't deserve someone as lovely and caring as she is, who makes her best effort to take care of me, whilst I am just a selfish bitch.
Stay Strong and Skinny,
Secret mission
Aw hunny I'm sorry you slipped up, but at least your intake now has been good!! Focus on the positive :)
ReplyDeleteI've always wondered how to poach egg whites.. I LOVE eggs but only ever eat them scrambled so that sounds like a good variation, thanks!
Im sorry things are still rocky with your girlfriend. I know it's hard not to feel guilty but maybe try instead to think of yourself as so privileged to have her in your life. I tend to over compensate in certain areas when I under compensate in others. If you still can't talk to her about Ana ( I dont know how much she knows or anything) sometimes even a small seemingly random gesture of kindest can make all the difference, to let her know you love her!
Love Always,
Ana's Angel
xoxo
Hope you are feeling miles better now and know that we all need you. You are absolutely adorable. =]
ReplyDeleteI poached my whites with a tiny bit of vinegar in boiling water, after a while, you will have a ball of fluffy egg whites.
She knows that I have an ED but she thought I have recovered. I am sort of being really devious, lied to her that I ate when she was still in bed and overdose on laxatea every night.
She is suffering from migraine today and I made her food and went food shopping for her, still got shouted at when I asked her if she could help me unpack though. Oh well, she isn't feeling too well, so I guess it's fine.
Stay Strong and Pretty,
Secret mission xxx